Little white pills

may 4, 2025

I didn’t realize writing this blog was going to be so exposing, and personal. But, you are either all in or all out. I believe the only way to truly have an effect on people is to be completely honest. That’s how you truly heal. So nothing will be sugar coated.

So, yesterday got a little hairy. Prior to surgery my hands were completely numb bilaterally. Now I feel pin pricks in my ring fingers and pinkies. Pain was pretty significant.., but these opioids make the bowels slow down and not perform as nicely, and make the important neurotransmitters in our gut not be released as well.

I wonder how many of us use alcohol,marijuana, anything to change our state of mind….so we don’t have to feel the pain? I think if we all looked a little deeper into ourselves we would connect to some kind of discomfort, pain that we’re trying to manage or cover. I don’t mean everyone…let me make that clear.

I remember looking to those narcotics because they made the sorrow, the hurt, the embarrassment, and the pain among other things decrease at least temporarily. No one wants to grow up being a drug addict. If you are in enough pain I believe you can and will do anything to stop it…even with those little white pills.