Hello World, this is a blog about Scoliosis and my descent into addiction, an eating disorder, and Depression. Please leave comments and questions. My goal is to let you know that you’re not alone. I’m not using AI. Everything is straight from my heart.
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I Apologize
I’ve taken a brief hiatus to grieve for my mother. As my mother has passed on now, everything seems so different but everything is the same. The world needs to stop, but everything proceeds… like in the calling hour line.. Everything advances as I see my world move on through the people who touched my…
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One Last Time
Her eyes glazed over, but still very beautifully blue. She started to shrug her emaciated shoulders ever so slightly….not in a jolting way but more of a calming way. I was reaching for that strong pulse that once was so regular and vibrant, but now it had become dull and weak. As she started taking…
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Depression
I’m having a hard time blogging right now. As my eyes slowly turn to the left, I can see the colors of the rainbow through my tears. I can’t stop the hole in my heart from aching. Mindless tasks have become insurmountable. I write these words not for sympathy, but rather enlightenment. We all have…
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The Divine
As I started my experience, I entered this invisible fortress / doorway. I stepped into dim pristine water. It was comforting and warm surrounding my whole body. Oxygen filled my lungs even though I was underwater. These ethereal notes of music, of spirit, and vibrant colors started spinning in my mind and all around my…
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Brace 2
approx. 40 years ago I woke unexpectedly in the exact position I fell asleep. 3:42 am the clock read. In the Milwaukee Brace the ONLY way you could sleep was on your back. Rage filled my body this time. Feeling strangled in my contraption as the metal collar piece encased around my debilitated neck, I…
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Life is Good
I awaken. Eyes wide open. The dream I came from is a distant past. I tense all the muscles in my weak neck to look up and see the clock…… 2:43 am……..again 3:33am…….again 4:16am. The pain in my hands aches to a montage of tingling, numbness, and pain getting increasingly more intense. Circles on the…
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Even with Scoliosis and Scars you can be Beautiful……
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Gratitude
The beauty in yourself runs deeply. We each carry a soul that the Divine has given us to expand upon his love. Even if you can’t see the integrity in yourself, the universe is surrounding you with its devotion. Each one of us has a purpose. Having Depression has opened my eyes to emotion that…