My journey with scoliosis
I’m having a hard time blogging right now.
As my eyes slowly turn to the left, I can see the colors of the rainbow through my tears. I can’t stop the hole in my heart from aching. Mindless tasks have become insurmountable. I write these words not for sympathy, but rather enlightenment.
We all have purpose, we all matter. Keep fighting. With every sunset comes the sunrise.
I am so depressed. I am seventy and used to be strong and energetic. Now I get paralyzed with depression sometimes, like today. I can’t cook a meal or do errands, My husband also seventy works seven days a week at two jobs. I became too weakened by pain and too foggy from meds to work after my sixth surgery. Now I hurt too bad to garden, cook, volunteer, or my fav, to travel. . I hate the way the meds make me feel but it helps me push to do things I can’t do without them. Thank you for sharing some positive feedback.
Deborah..,. I can almost be in your body and feel your pain. You, are not alone. I know the frustration you must feel. YOU have worth, you have meaning, your mission has not been completed here or you wouldn’t be here. Put one foot in front of the other. Sometimes what works for me is just praying…… Say “I’m going to take life- one second, one minute, one hour, one day, one week at a time” I say to my higher power I accept the crosses you have given me, BUT I can’t do it ALONE or…. without you by my side. Please guide me. Please be with me, please give me strength. I hope that this helps. You are a child of God. You are exquisite and unique! This is what helps me sometimes. Please love yourself because you deserve that.
Thank you so much. I had two good days. I’m Working on finding things I can do and trying not to focus on the pain as much. It does make me feel better when I read about others having the same experience’s.
I need to decide whether to have another surgery to fuse my spine and extend rods and screws to the damaged vertebrae.
Hi Deborah! I just saw this! Way the pros and cons!!! Let me know what you do! What can I do to help?
Interesting..my name is also Cindy. And I’m 70 years young as they say. I am really struggling with my idiopathic scoliosis for the past 2 years. Old pains, new chronic pain, and future pain on the horizon. I have an addiction personality.
Cindy! I didn’t see your reply! How bad is your curve? OMG at least you can stand up and own the fact that you have an addictive personality! What have you tried for the pain? Keep moving that beautiful back of yours SOMEhow! Stretch! Swim! I don’t know if you have access to a pool? I feel for you my darling. Never give up. One foot in front of the other.There are days that I seriously don’t want to be here! But, we have so much to give! Lessons to learn! YOU are here for a reason. Hold on to that.
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